I went to see Kris Kristofferson at the Paramount last night with some friends. The tickets were a gift from one of those oh-so generous friends. We’re all fans and have been for a very long time.
I first encountered Kristofferson’s music back in the early 70’s and remember being totally enthralled. I was in a convertible owned by the guy friend of a guy friend. He was playing a cassette, the Me and Bobby McGee tape. I had to go get my own and continued to buy his records for decades. Then I had to replace them all with CDs.
Listening to him brought back such memories: Listening to “The Pilgrim” half drunk and crying about an ex-lover while with a another lover (that’s a whole other story!). Talking with my husband late at night about the songs and what they each meant to the both of us.
The concert last night was bittersweet. It was two hours–minus a 15 minute break, which was not, by the way, long enough to get through the bathroom line–of singing. The audience was only a little rowdy and very appreciative. I thought, the lyrics that were so powerful and relevant in the 70s were still powerful and relevant now. Nothing’s changed, it seems and that makes me very sad..
“Some folks hate the Whites
Who hate the Blacks who hate the Klan
Most of us hate anything that
We don’t understand”
(from Jesus Was a Capricorn)
This was the third time I’d seen Kris in concert. The first was probably 30 years ago at Fiddler’s Green with The Highwaymen. Johnny Cash, Waylon Jennings, Willie Nelson and Kris. They teased him about being the kid of the group. Not a kid anymore. The next time I saw him was a couple of years ago, again at the Paramount, with Merle Haggard. Kris had lost his voice and Haggard did 98 percent of the singing, both his own and Kristofferson’s songs. Pretty amazing.
I figure this was probably the last time I’d get to see Kris in concert. He is, after all, 83 years old. He looked and sounded like an 83 year old but was still able to stand and sing for two hours. I didn’t notice any fumbling of lyrics and that seems remarkable. By the end of the second set, his always raspy voice was nearly gone but I think if he could have, he’d have gone on singing for another hour or two. And we would have all gone on listening.
His words touched me when I was 17. They still have the power to move me now, 50 years later. Who figured either one of us would have lived this long? As someone once said, if I’d known I was going to live this long, I’d have taken better care of myself!
“And you still can hear me singing
To the people who don’t listen
To the things that I am saying
Praying someone’s going to hear
And I guess I’ll die explaining how
The things that they complain about
Are things they could be changing
Hoping someone’s gonna care
I was born a lonely singer
And I’m bound to die the same
But I’ve got to feed the hunger in my soul
And if I never have a nickel
I won’t ever die ashamed
‘Cause I don’t believe that no one wants to know.”
(from To Beat the Devil)
I still love ya, Kris. You keep beating that devil